No job ..... Still and computerless

Well, it's been a month almost that Kyle has been home, here, on my couch. That means no paycheck. As a believer, I know that God owns all resources and He doesn't need a paycheck to give them to us. He's been amazing at providing not only physical needs but emotional too. I'm really trying to stay out of the pit of despair. We are really trying to send Jordan to school in January and to do so we need money. So on to the next issue. Computer. We have none. How inconvenient is this in a world that's run by them. And you can figure out that purchasing one isn't an option. So we need prayers today. Prayers for provision and faith and patience and love for one another as we trudge this hard road. But I choose to count gifts along the way so here goes.
# a peaceful morning before school and giggles
# brown lunch bags full
# hope for today because of His promises.
Grace to you
Kim

Counting my gifts Up to one thousand

I'm counting gifts on here now. I've been counting for a year and more but haven't shared so here goes. Some may be hard Eucharisteo and some joyful but they're all gifts. Today. # 200. Ball game with family in our home. #201. God working on finding ways to provide. #202. Sweet toes finding mine this morning on a no school day Saturday. ..... May God bless you and may you experience His grace. Praying for all of you.
Kim

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I believe, help my unbelief

He walks in the door with his black duffle. The one that has been on so many journeys with us as the rest of our suitcases are still in a storage unit in Mississippi. ( a story for another blog post). Little ones delighted to see him. Arms wrapped tight around his neck. They only know their daddy is home from his work trip. Me? I know what this means. It means the job we thought was going to save us is over less than a week it lasted and I question my Creator. Why would He give us this and take it away? Why would He allow our hopes and dreams of financial comfort and dreams of sending a daughter to ministry school and dreams of a full pantry and dreams of haircuts and full tanks of gas and just plain living , just vanish in an instant. I trusted Him to finally get us out of this waiting room of job hunting. It's been so hard. Yet I've seen His hand providing for us when I couldn't see a way. Somehow the lights stayed on, somehow we have running water and a roof over our heads and it's nothing short of a miracle. To God be the glory great things He has done. I know trials definitely increase endurance and strength and perseverance and I am so grateful He loves me enough to test me. During the hard, I turn to Him. Always turning toward Him. I do have moments and sometimes days that I waste , not enjoying all He has given me. Beautiful children. A husband of 22 years. A family that loves me. And I forget the goal and isn't eternity with Him enough? It was for Paul and Silas in their prison. And it is for me in mine. In the waiting I will look for and count a thousand ways God loves me and I will whisper throughout my days the all is well and it is. Gods promises give me such hope and as I get to know Him more and allow Him to flow through every area of my life I will SEE that He had a reason for all of this. I'm so grateful for the lessons learned. That I'm not that person I used to be and that I cannot please both the world and God. I choose Him. If this is it for me it is enough because HE is enough.

Life changes

Crazy how suddenly life changes. Our God works that way. A week ago one phone call changed ours. A year in the waiting and a year of God orchestrating all the details of this journey. We are beyond grateful and praising Him with our whole hearts. We have been trudging in this economy. Putting our faith in Jesus knowing His plan is perfect and if that's true then we are in the place where He wants us. A year ago my husband lost his job. And since that day God has been proving over and over that He is enough. My faith is unshakable. My children's faith is unshakeable. My marriage is rock solid anchored in Jesus. I'm so grateful to have stepped into His blessings and out of the desert for a season. More to come. Love to all and grace is enough.
Kim

A day full of gratitude

If you wonder why my posts are about gratitude lately it's because I feel like if I'm not grateful for all things then I'm playing God choosing what I think is best for my life. I've really been challenged lately to look up to Heaven and trust His Hand is always working my life events for what's best and what will serve His purpose and bring mor to Him. Isn't that what it's about? Bringing people to Jesus. My life has been so much about me. And not so much about taking this cross and following Him. This cross this life. The good. The hard financial crisis and the unknown in the future. Today I have what I need and for today. There's a lot I need to get for my oldest to go to ministry school and I really could use prayer. She's twenty and has no car. She's going to be living in apartment with roommates. I have nothing for this fall except the promise that He will and can move mountains. Do I believe He can and will? Yes.

The desert

And in the desert, there you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place. Deut. 1:31.

Yes all the way. To me this says that all that's happened in my life the good and the not so good God has been here. The way that my daddy carried me to bed or the way he carried me up the steps of a stadium football game and when he picked me up as he walked through the door home from work. I remember how excited dad was when I wanted to be with him and spend time with him as we had many special times. Dinners that we couldn't afford to go he would take me on a date. In elementary school he would take me to lunch at the place of my choice and we would go get me some white boots that zipped up the back. I felt so special.

God who loves me even more than my daddy probably feels the same way when I spend time with Him one on one time. Just He and I. Its amazing that the creator of all this wants me. To spend time with me and sing and dance over me. To see past the flaws because he sees me as forgiven. So today I recommit to Him. My all.