Sunday

Sausage in the skillet. Little bit singing Rudolph. I want to freeze her. No one else songs these anymore. My 12 year old wants to believe but he's really not. And he's not interested in the elf anymore. They grow up so fast. In a way it's easier when they know its you. The economy the way it is makes Santa really scarce. I miss the hiding of the presents. They know there aren't any. But in light of what happens in Connecticut I'm blessed to have what I have. A Sunday with all my babies and many more to come. Lord be within the hearts of those who lost so much. Comfort the little ones who saw too much. This is all too much. We ask where is God. He's here. He's in our hearts. We need to replace our hearts with His.

It's Sunday. His day. And grace falls like rain.

Tis the Season

I cannot believe I said it. My words like venom spewed. " it's the ugliest tree I've ever seen". And just like that we all came undone. Doors slammed and the tree went back in the box. The box that my husband and 8 year old daughter had just unloaded. She had picked out the star for the top and she was beaming. Until I ..... Well. You know.
It really wasn't just about the tree. It was about so much more. I should be grateful. Praising God for what He just did. And had done. He found the perfect job for my
Husband. He starts immediately. It's what we've yearned for. A job with a future. But what about now? If it was September it would be different. I'm just being honest. But it's Christmas. And we have no money for gifts and yes we have everything else we need but one still believes in Santa and thinks there will be a specific doll under the tree for her. That tree I took back.
So how do I make up for this? How do I change this for us? I can't do anything about the circumstances but I can change me or better yet let Him change me. Make Christmas about Him. Give gifts to Him. Start a new one. It'll sting at first but change hurts. And we will thank Him for everything. Gratitude turns to grace and joy fills us here.
Of course I said I was sorry and we laughed at the day we had and we started over. His mercies are new everyday. And I thank Him and name blessings for days to come. Joy to the world, The Lord has come. Right? Tis the Season to be thankful for All He Has Done.
Blessings
Kim

Thanksgiving

He touched me and made me whole. That's the reason I can say thank you for all this. For struggling to buy food, for little gas money and sibling feuding And for the cross that saved us all.

We trust a good God. And He will make all things work for our good. And He will be glorified. I make wrong decisions and bad choices and knowingly disobey but Grace is mine praise The Lord. And I will give thanks for all this!!

No job ..... Still and computerless

Well, it's been a month almost that Kyle has been home, here, on my couch. That means no paycheck. As a believer, I know that God owns all resources and He doesn't need a paycheck to give them to us. He's been amazing at providing not only physical needs but emotional too. I'm really trying to stay out of the pit of despair. We are really trying to send Jordan to school in January and to do so we need money. So on to the next issue. Computer. We have none. How inconvenient is this in a world that's run by them. And you can figure out that purchasing one isn't an option. So we need prayers today. Prayers for provision and faith and patience and love for one another as we trudge this hard road. But I choose to count gifts along the way so here goes.
# a peaceful morning before school and giggles
# brown lunch bags full
# hope for today because of His promises.
Grace to you
Kim

Counting my gifts Up to one thousand

I'm counting gifts on here now. I've been counting for a year and more but haven't shared so here goes. Some may be hard Eucharisteo and some joyful but they're all gifts. Today. # 200. Ball game with family in our home. #201. God working on finding ways to provide. #202. Sweet toes finding mine this morning on a no school day Saturday. ..... May God bless you and may you experience His grace. Praying for all of you.
Kim

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I believe, help my unbelief

He walks in the door with his black duffle. The one that has been on so many journeys with us as the rest of our suitcases are still in a storage unit in Mississippi. ( a story for another blog post). Little ones delighted to see him. Arms wrapped tight around his neck. They only know their daddy is home from his work trip. Me? I know what this means. It means the job we thought was going to save us is over less than a week it lasted and I question my Creator. Why would He give us this and take it away? Why would He allow our hopes and dreams of financial comfort and dreams of sending a daughter to ministry school and dreams of a full pantry and dreams of haircuts and full tanks of gas and just plain living , just vanish in an instant. I trusted Him to finally get us out of this waiting room of job hunting. It's been so hard. Yet I've seen His hand providing for us when I couldn't see a way. Somehow the lights stayed on, somehow we have running water and a roof over our heads and it's nothing short of a miracle. To God be the glory great things He has done. I know trials definitely increase endurance and strength and perseverance and I am so grateful He loves me enough to test me. During the hard, I turn to Him. Always turning toward Him. I do have moments and sometimes days that I waste , not enjoying all He has given me. Beautiful children. A husband of 22 years. A family that loves me. And I forget the goal and isn't eternity with Him enough? It was for Paul and Silas in their prison. And it is for me in mine. In the waiting I will look for and count a thousand ways God loves me and I will whisper throughout my days the all is well and it is. Gods promises give me such hope and as I get to know Him more and allow Him to flow through every area of my life I will SEE that He had a reason for all of this. I'm so grateful for the lessons learned. That I'm not that person I used to be and that I cannot please both the world and God. I choose Him. If this is it for me it is enough because HE is enough.