New Year. New Word

It's been way too long since I've posted anything and I'm convicted. God has been whispering to me to continue telling my story. Of how I'm not perfect and how much of a mess I am and how He can use my mess for His ministry. There was so much I failed at. So many things I didn't do. Like lose the weight, get healthy , school better, family devotions every night. It's not about that though. Grace.

And this year 2013 I'm committed to place my life IN HIM. IN being the key word. Trust IN HIM. Ann Voskamp over at Aholyexperience.com has a new word every year. So I copied her and I'm also committed to learning scripture. For reading what He has written for me will help me become more like Him and draw me to Him. And if I carry Him with me everywhere by always having His words in my heart and mind then I'm always leaning INto Him. What a friend I have in Jesus. Right? Also I'm blogging for a ministry. Here's a link if you want to read it. http://girlfriendscoffeehour.com/2013/01/04/gch_vh-lifes-healing-choices-gear-up/

Here's to a new year. Of thanking Him for a thousand things that he's done and given me. Not looking back with regret but moving forward with renewed hope and faith. And new chances with my children and husband.
His mercies are new every morning.
And the moon is gorgeous tonight.

Recipes and life.

When my grandmother died a few years ago she left me her recipes. Along with many memories and love and a relationship with Jesus Christ. I pulled the brown wooden boxes out today and realized they were completely out of order. Appetizers and chicken and vegetable dishes all in random places and really hard to put my finger on when needed. Kind of how life can be. Completely out of order. Chaos. No flow whatsoever. As i I began placing the right ones behind the right label I realized that it's just that simple to get my life in order. That I just need to place Jesus in front of all the rest and it will all fall into place and chaos becomes order and life flows again with a rhythm that only He can orchestrate. Praise always precedes the miracle. So I praise Him and ask Him to step in first and I go along the rest of today knowing He's got this.

fear of the unknown

"even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise" im not sure where i read that or who said that but it reminds me of the verse in the Bible about how we may cry in the night but joy come s in the morning. Im ready for morning because im tired of mourning. My husband is still without a job, meaning no income, no money for food, eviction notices, cell phone bills about to go unpaid which means no contact with the outside world. ITs been almost exactly a year since we moved the whole family to pensacola beach ,fl. Away from everything familiar, family, friends, church. I even moved a senior in highschool because thats what i felt God wanted. Now here we are, in a condo on the beach, and no way to pay for it and no job in sight. Even the gorgeous view we have isnt gorgeous when you cant feed your family. The Bible reminds us that we shouldn worry about what we will wear or what we will eat. If His eye is on the sparrow then we know He watches us. I believe that wholeheartidly. however, I wonder how far He will allow us to go until He brings us another miracle. Homeless? I want to feel His love again. Its hard to feel loved in this situation. I know it in my heart but I need to spend some more time with God to get to know Him better. To be reminded of just how much He loves me and my children. Its hard when you are where I am/ Im almost without hope. Thats a scary place to be. Prayers would be welcomed! i will update!

Faith of a child

We are getting ready for school. She is telling me what she has to take care of. I mention a shirt. Every Friday they are to wear a blue shirt that bears the name of their school. They will get a reward, a paper sand dollar to spend at a really fun school store. Back to the point of the post. The conversation goes something like this;" mommy, i need to remember my book, my binder, my...(I interrupt) "your blue shirt" she says with her child faith, "mommy, you'll take care of that. you always make sure I wear the right thing" I think of my God. I think of how I dont trust Him sometimes. It should be first nature. My daughter didnt even consider the thought that I would ever forget to put the blue shirt on her. Not for a minute. I learn from this. My God never forgets my blue shirt either. No matter what my blue shirt is, whether it is finances, health, food, shelter. I need to remember that I am His child. He will always take care of me. He will always be available. I trust Him today with a childlike trust. I will have a child like faith. I know I am taken care of. Forgive me when I fall short. Im so grateful to learn from these little people that God gave to me. Faith, I have it.