If faith can move mountains

Today my faith was tested. Hour by hour minute by minute ! My precious mom better known as mama was admitted to the hospital. She's really ill and I'm really afraid of losing her. What we thought was simple became complicated in a matter of seconds. The chest X-ray ruined it all. Her bloodworm was another story. White count really low and now there's a bone marrow biopsy scheduled for tomorrow. Another day of nervous stomach and questions maybe answered and my life is changed forever. The results can change it all. Our cozy little set up. Not perfect but not awful either. God please work your miracles. Please.

His mysterious ways

This past week has been stressful to say the least. A little background? My mom has been really sick. She's been sick for a while. Since December she's had no energy. No desire to do anything. Since my dads Alzheimer's diagnosis she's shut down. She's used to being cared for. Not caring for. See in her 40s she had two heart attacks. Actually at my age really. So she subconsciously hoped to check out so she wouldn't have to watch my dad. Her sweetest husband. Godly man go down like she thinks he will.
Now on to the rest of the story. God is faithful. He will get our attention. And it may be in a way that we aren't find of. So mom goes in the hospital. She was swollen all over. Arms legs torso and fluid was everywhere. She had an emergency blood transfusion. Then lots of diuretics The miracle happened the first night in the hospital. God prompted me to call my pastor and neighbor in jackson ms. ( all this time I'm stuck in Pensacola) he shows up to speak truth to them and pray with them. While he was there my mom confessed that she didn't know for sure if she was going to heaven. The enemy was defeated that night and another life won for Jesus christ. Praise Him for this trial. Praise Him for her surrendering to Him. And for hearing all the prayers going up in our behalf. Peace is with us and there's proof that He works all for good!
In Him
Kim

When your tithe isn't supposed to hurt

Our tithe actually put our account in overdraft frenzy. An act of faith. But I'm taking this as a learning experience and I welcome His lesson in all of it and I still give in faith because my Father demands it. It's not my money really. It's His. I love how He always gives us what we need. I admit lately I have fallen short of what's expected if me but in His eyes I'm ok. I'm still loved and lovable. Praise Jesus. I don't feel like it today. I feel like a failure. Like I can try and try but can't get it right. What's so hard about balancing a checkbook? My accounting teacher would be so disappointed. Sorry mrs Arnold. So I get back up. Dust off the shame and ask for strength to try again. For I only truly fail when I quit. Need prayers today for anything? I'm honored to pray for you!

The zoo

All Gods creatures have a place in the choir. We went to the zoo today with the school. First grade class. My sweet first grader. I concluded today that the investment of time that we put into our children is the most important investment we will ever make. I love knowing that whether I'm there with m or not she knows God is watching and that's enough to keep her respectful of others and especially adults. So train up a child in the way they should go and when they're on a field trip at the zoo without u. They will be sweet and respectful of others in charge. Thank you sweet girl for a really fun day.

Palm Sunday

Jesus told His disciples to go get a colt and tell them the Lord sent them to get it. He rode through the town , shouts from the crowds hosanna in the highest !!! Palm branches on the streets. Everyone laying down everything at His feet. I'm laying. Everything at His feet. I'm laying my life at His feet. May we not be the same a week from now.

Praise you for all you have done

Dear God
I praise you for loving me and accepting me for me. For creating me and molding me into the imperfect yet perfect woman, mom, wife. Knowing that your Son came here before me to pave the way. From infancy to adulthood what am example for Me. So thank you. Thank you for the peace and love and acceptance and provision and love unending. My love for you is huge. This love story will continue.

I had a first tonight. I went to a Christmas program at my daughters school and for the first time in my forty something years, not one song was sung about Christmas. No rudolph. no frosty the snowman, no joy to the world, and not one song about a manger, a baby Jesus or mary. Im shocked. See., my first set of children grew up going to private schools. Yes we had to pay a lot but they sang and heard about Jesus. Then life happened and the younger two havent had the life that the older two did. No fun outings,  no parks, no weekend trips. not even a day trip to the mall. See, we might as well live in a third world country. We starve daily, struggle to clothe our kids and unless there is  a miracle we may not have christmas presents this year. As much as i would love to be a mom that says Jesus birth is enough celebration for us, and it is. But my children are accustomed to a santa Christmas, the presents under the tree. Its been way too long since my husband has had a job. It is taking a toll on me and my k,ids. Im so ready to watch him leave in the morning like normal men do and see him again at dinner. I am trying to be patient but im  not sure how much longer i can watch him lay on one end of the couch and flip channels. Im suffereing from not having one minute alone. not one. I tell myself that this is where God wants me or He would change it. However I have no idea His relationship with my husband. I never see him open his bible and I definitely see him watch things on tv that are not what God would want. At this very moment he is watching American Dad. I cant help but wonder if we are struggling because of him not seeking Him. I know where i am weak He is strong. I also know I seek Him 24 hrs a day. I dont even watch tv unless its the 700 club or life today. So please God, please, hear my cry. Please end this suffering, please restore us to living again. I will dedicate the rest of my days to telling the world about you. I want to give my kids a life, a quality life. Not just surviving. I love you Lord. Im never giving up on you.
Satan will never win this battle.In Jesus name,. amen