When you're questioning everything

I do question why we are allowed to suffer. And I do wonder if Christians should have the abundant life. Until He explained that maybe the abundant life is knowing we are saved. That we are going to Heaven and that He will always be with us and never leave us. 

As I watched the Hiding Place today, and watched Corrie ten Boom still love Jesus in the midst of a concentration camp, I'm forced to look around me. I have a really beautiful life. She lost her father and sister and all she knew. All she had was a Bible and He was enough. I loved what Betsy said , " there's never a pit too deep that His love isn't deeper still". I've been in self made pits and I've been thrown in some and a pit is a pit. The only way out is to praise Him step by step, blessing upon blessing, starting with the first breath you take in the morning. 

It's easy to get caught up in the things we don't have and look around and see what others do have. It's saying that God doesn't know best and we are better at running our own lives than God. We aren't. Are we? Another quote is trusting an unknown future to a known God. Don't you just love how He's given us so many heroes, examples, people who have been through more than we could imagine and they more than conquer. And they've been and still are inspirations to us. We know we WILL MAKE IT. The seasons always change and suddenly God works a miracle. 

So I count blessings and all the ways He loves and I can't help but smile. I really am blessed  and outside the sun is coming up and the waves are slow and steady....

If you feel led to help me or someone else go on this amazing leadership conference let me know in the comment section. 

Catalyst

I'm trying to raise money to go on a leadership conference in Atlanta Georgia in October. I need to pay by sept 18th and I'm believing Him for a miracle and His favor. If you feel led to help please leave a comment. I know God has big things planned for me. He's given me a heart for women's ministry and letting them know how much they're loved and how beautiful they are. Society says one thing. God says another. God bless you and keep praying. Claiming His provision. In His name. 

When you really need to trust God and 21st birthdays

Tomorrow is my oldest daughters 21st birthday. Where did the time go? Yesterday we were playing dollhouse and making Barbie houses. Watching Father of the Bride part 2 and Cinderella. I'm tying your bow for the 50th time to make it even. And wearing your daddy's shoes I'm the prince and you're the princess. 

Fast forward. You're still my princess. You're a gift from God almighty. Everyday I'm reminded of His goodness just looking at you. No one tells you that labor pains continue even after the birth day. They continue when their hearts are broken. When they are rejected. When someone tells them they're not all you've told them they are. Oh how we hit our knees and pray constantly for God to protect them. And hold their hearts close. I've done things different from the norm. I've said more yes than no. When most were going to college, I said yes you can follow Him to ministry school. When God says no, stay where you are and watch me work, together we said YES. and how you sing so beautifully as you lead His people in worship on Sundays. How did we live through all that we have? Losing your childhood home? Moving from all you've known and held close? Watched me battle demons? Seen poverty up close? Because HE LIVES. ..... Because we trust Him with all we are and all we have. Since the day you were born you've been His and I'm so grateful to have God to guide and direct. Where would we be without Him? We will never have to know!!

Happy Birthday Baby. You are my world. I love you. 

P.S.  I'm trying to raise money to go on a ministry retreat with my church. If you feel led to help financially please let me know. Thank you for reading. I am praying for you all.