So I hate to overblog today but i feel like the posts before this need to be tied together, ,my point of the blogs need clarity. I started those posts about my marraige and soaps to say that reality isnt the husband living every secong thinking about his lovely wife a nd what he can do to make her happy or him telling her how pretty she is. and as much as we moms may love this concept, stephano isnt sending us to our own island. Marraige is messy, its beautiful, its hard but with God in the front you can make it your own good soap opera without all the sinning that goes along with being in the soaps. We know it isnt real. But sin is real, its real in our lives and marraiges. BUT GOD. He is full of grace and forgives our sins as we repent. As i pray tonight to be a better wife, I will pray to be a better follower and witness. Im grateful to still be his and HIS. Be Blessed! kim

til death do us part, part 2

so as I was saying about the soapoperas, I was addicted. As a mid life housewife, my life had become a life that I wouldve never dreamed when I was little. When asked what i wanted to be when i grew up, I can honestly say it was never this..." I want to be an addict. I really want to have 4 children, start taking prescription pain killers, wreck my marraige, lose our home, move in with my parents and somewhere in there I hope to go to two rehabs only to fail at it, disappoint all who k now me, and worst of all feel separated from my God, nope that wasnt my dream. it was my reality. Until I hit my knees one sunday morning in my bathroom and surrendered. Im free. No longer an addict, im witness for Him. I am here to tell other strugglers that are trudging that it can be don e. My husband stuck with me for the kids at first but Im so grateful that he did. I stuck by him in the loss of jobs and financial hardships, by the grace of God, by Grace we are together, til death do us part. give grace to someone today

Til Death Do Us Part , part 1

Do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband? do you promise to stay with hime during the hard and the awesome, the drought and famine and the fruitful times? Or is the idea of marraige this unreaistic picture of a soap opera stars aka Bo and Hope? Mine was the latter. I hate to admit this but as a college student and young to mid age housewife, I was addicted to soaps. "Hi, my name is Kim. Its been 3 years since I last watched ALL MY CHILDREN or ONE LIFE TO LIVE OR my favorite,,,,GENERAL HOSPITAL'. Now let me justify the sin for a minute. In college, everyone was doing it and i had to fit in right? I admit i took it a bit overboard when i would actually skip class to watch Days Of Our Lives.(that was the one i loved then). Then it became something to occupy my tired brain with while folding cloth burp rags and little pink onezies, and my favorite excuse is this,my sister would come over to my home or me to hers, we would make pasta salad and sandwiches and let the girls play while we watched, that is until my niece made my parents dance around the room kissing before they went to bed. 2 be cont

Faith of a child

We are getting ready for school. She is telling me what she has to take care of. I mention a shirt. Every Friday they are to wear a blue shirt that bears the name of their school. They will get a reward, a paper sand dollar to spend at a really fun school store. Back to the point of the post. The conversation goes something like this;" mommy, i need to remember my book, my binder, my...(I interrupt) "your blue shirt" she says with her child faith, "mommy, you'll take care of that. you always make sure I wear the right thing" I think of my God. I think of how I dont trust Him sometimes. It should be first nature. My daughter didnt even consider the thought that I would ever forget to put the blue shirt on her. Not for a minute. I learn from this. My God never forgets my blue shirt either. No matter what my blue shirt is, whether it is finances, health, food, shelter. I need to remember that I am His child. He will always take care of me. He will always be available. I trust Him today with a childlike trust. I will have a child like faith. I know I am taken care of. Forgive me when I fall short. Im so grateful to learn from these little people that God gave to me. Faith, I have it.