Tired yet grateful

Instead of beach towels and sunscreen I've traded them for Advil and children's triaminic. Yes they've all been under the weather and I'm the caretaker. When fevers are high patience runs low and grace is needed and plenty. It's hard to admit it. That sometimes nurturing doesn't come natural. Or that we are nurtured out and we want some too. I resented him bringing home this illness. And I resented him feeling under the weather. I'm selfish like that. I always regret it. I long to be all to all. The true proverbs 31 woman.

I hear coughing from the back She's not quite well yet. So I give her medicine to quiet the hacking. What we all need is true medicine from the Great Physician. His word heals all. Quiets the soul. Gives peace to the chaos and gives grace to impatient wives like me. My husband always forgives me. I'm amazed by his unconditional love. He's starting to resemble his Creator and oh how grateful I am for this. I've prayed long and hard and drawn many prayer circles around my marriage. God always answers specific prayers. God is so good and I'm so in love with Him.

He's led me beside still waters and restored my soul. He led me to a church and a small group and a core planning group and to new godly women and studies about Him. He's restored my marriage and walked us through many valleys of death. Or so it felt. And He will lead us out of this too. Sick babies and a traveling husband but He's close and He comforts and I will rest in Him. I'm praying protection and healing and safe travels. I'm praising for grace and forgiveness I need both.

It begins and ends with Him. I start my day empty to fill and end my day on my knees praising Him for helping me through another day. Resting in Him so I have the energy to nurture these sick ones.

The sun will come up after the rain tonight and pelicans will fly and waves will crash up on shore and I will soak it all in and give thanks for all of this.